Afterthoughts, Coward, and Whirlwind

I did some more digging and here are 3 other poems I wrote between 2006-2007.

"Afterthoughts"


My inspiration has run dry
The innocence has left my eyes
There you are, still in my mind
I cannot find a place to hide

What is this guilt I’m burdened with
When I shouldn't feel it
Why does forgiveness feel like sin
When I’m trying to forgive him

I thought it was over
A long time ago
But there it goes
Starting up again

What is this guilt I’m burdened with
When I shouldn't feel it
Why does forgiveness feel like sin
When I’m trying to forgive him

Happiness is not mine
Not for a long time
What inhibitions
Does my conscience bind

What is this guilt I’m burdened with
When I shouldn't feel it
Why does forgiveness feel like sin
When I’m trying to forgive him

Numbness taunts the warmth of my heart
With promises of no more pain
But can I pay the consequence

What is this guilt I’m burdened with
When I shouldn't feel it
Why does forgiveness feel like sin
When I’m trying to forgive him

"Coward"


It’s Friday night and I’m all alone
The weight is heavy
The night is long
The burden I bear is much too strong
I can't fight it

So I hide
I hide because I can’t fight
I’m too weak to fight myself and win

I let the dark veil consume me
It overtakes my mind, my body and my soul
But I don’t let anyone see it
I keep it hidden inside
At all times

So I hide
I hide because I can’t fight
I’m too weak to fight myself and win

Isolated from the world around me
I become my own enemy
As I embrace the darkness within me
My beauty rots away with each teardrop
The salt tears at my skin, burning

So I hide
I hide because I can’t fight
I’m too weak to fight myself and win

I am my own downfall
I never let anyone see me at all
I cower in the shadows of self-consciousness
Until it destroys me

So I hide
I hide because I can’t fight
I’m too weak to fight myself and win

"Whirlwind"


Taste the salt of rain
dripping down my face
Wash away the pain
with your slippery embrace

Shield away the sun
with its bright, smiling face
Take away my fun
and my pride just in case

Like a whirlwind
Pick me up
Spin me around again
Make me feel
Like I'm not drowning
Make me feel
Like I'm alive again
and still breathing
Make me feel
the extreme again
No inbetween

I am bored with mediocrity
I am sleeping in the bed I made
I want nothing and everything
If it were up to me I'd be somebody

I question my surroundings
and burn them all to hell
I analyze beyond all reason
But I mean well

Like a whirlwind
Pick me up
Spin me around again
Make me feel
Like I'm not drowning
Make me feel
Like I'm alive again
and still breathing
Make me feel
the extreme again
No inbetween

Steal my heart
and leave me with rage
Fill me up
and throw me away

Like a whirlwind
Pick me up
Spin me around again
Make me feel
Like I'm not drowning
Make me feel
Like I'm alive again
and still breathing
Make me feel
the extreme again
No inbetween