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Saturday, January 9, 2021

The 7-Year Itch

So it’s been about 7 years since I’ve posted a blog entry… What persuaded me to post now? Well, in a roundabout way Brandon Boyd of the band Incubus inspired me. I ordered his 3 books around my birthday in August and just recently got around to reading them all. I ordered them because at the beginning of 2020 I had bought a ticket and a meet and greet package for an Incubus concert that was supposed to happen in the summer and we all know those plans got canceled due to the pandemic. So the books were my treat to try to give me a little substitute for missing out on that experience.

Brandon's books which you can purchase at brandonboyd.me

Now I’ve been a fan of Incubus since 1999 and had the pleasure of seeing them in concert in 2001 at HFStival. Seeing them live made me love the band even more. I remember Brandon with his dreads at the time, not only singing, but playing a didgeridoo and rocking out on a djembe drum, and I instantly had a crush. Anyone who knows me knows I get crushes rather easily. But he was one of my fascinations from that point on.

He used to have an email list you could subscribe to and he would send out emails at the time, similar to what a blog is nowadays, with random journal entries he would write. I used to love reading those emails. He’s a very deep, enlightened human being with a great perspective on the world and he’s also quite amusing too. His thoughts make me think and also radiate a positive energy. If you’ve listened to any Incubus music, it’s also evident in his clever lyric writing.

I didn’t intend for this to be all about Incubus but I might as well tell the whole story since I started… I got to see Incubus again at Moby’s Area One Festival in 2001 as well I believe. He had cut off his dreads at that point. Then I saw them in 2003 at Lollapalooza and my last time was in 2012 at the DC101 Chili Cookoff. So I’ve never actually been to a full Incubus show, it’s been kind of an inside joke that if I went to a music festival, Incubus was there.

Something drew me back to them early last year. I think it was the release of their new song “Our Love” and I really liked the video for it too. Then I found that YouTube has a ton of live concerts and music content now, and with the help of my RokuTV I got hooked on watching music videos and live performances and even found a few years of music I had missed out on. They have continued to be a comfort for me during this pandemic.

So back to Brandon Boyd’s books… They are full of his art, journal entries and randomness. Yes, he also paints and makes art in addition to fronting a band. This is interesting to me now especially because after my divorce I found a love for painting. So going through his books made me realize something about myself… Since I was a kid I loved writing. I wrote stories during elementary and middle school age, then in high school I leaned more toward music so my words delved more into writing poetry or possible song lyrics. I also got into journalism from taking that class and working on the school newspaper during high school. So my writing transformed into journalistic styles as well.

In reading some of Brandon’s writing, he started out with art and then later got into writing and then music. For me I started with writing, then got into music, and much later found art. These connections are what inspired me to write this blog today. I realized I hadn’t written in a long, long time and it’s my most familiar form of creative self-expression. I don’t know if all creative types delve into all the forms of the arts, but maybe many of us do experiment with different forms. I still love music, but making music isn’t my strongest talent. I wish I was better at songwriting and performing music, but perhaps it’s not my deepest calling. Writing is the easiest or most natural thing for me so I really should get back to it more often. Even if it is just blogging, it’s something.

So to fill in the gap a little bit from my last blog entry about 7 years ago… What happened in 7 years? Well I got married and divorced, got a new job, got 2 new cats after my former 2 passed away, still live in my condo and still drive the same car. My 2002 Chevy was given a 1-2 year life expectancy last year though, so I’m trying to hold off another year or so before having to buy a new one, just so I can catch up on some debt first. Those are the boring life details haha. I didn’t go to many concerts during that time period… I did get to see Dead Sara, Kiss, Transiberian Orchestra and Hollywood Vampires. I think those were it besides my ex’s band. You can catch up on some videos from all of those on my YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/mewzak

Back to art and such… As I mentioned earlier, after my divorce I discovered painting. This actually started with the fad of these little painting and sipping wine places popping up. I decided to try one at Painting with a Twist and loved it. Unfortunately the location near me closed permanently during the pandemic, but I went there about once a month for about a year to make paintings and sip on a few glasses of wine. I started out with the instructor-led classes but then found I preferred the open studio classes where people are doing different paintings of their choice from the selections and given an example to reference and minimal instruction. I liked going at my own pace and figuring out how to do it on my own with a few tips more than going by the pace of an instructor and the whole class doing the same painting. This became a sort of creative therapy for me. It was a way for me to be expressive and create something I can keep hanging on my walls.

I also tried a paint pouring class once that a lady just did out of her own home. I really enjoyed that but I’ve been wanting to experiment more with it. Whereas regular painting focuses more on the details and usually trying to copy or mimic something, such as trees, the moon, water, and other landscape imagery I did at Painting with a Twist, paint pouring is almost the opposite. It’s more random or chaotic, a sense of letting go and letting it morph into its own thing, and I really liked that too. You can pick the colors or the framework so to speak, but the end result is mostly out of your control. It’s strangely releasing to find beauty in the chaos. I recently finally got most of my own supplies to try more of that on my own at home and also do some more regular painting on my own. I might share some pictures of my creations on here in the future.

Besides painting, I also got into wine. Perhaps Painting with a Twist started that little spark, and then the pandemic ignited it. Not in the way you would think necessarily… My former bass guitar teacher runs a winery and I saw posts on Facebook about struggles with the state of things, so I joined their wine club to help support a friend’s small business, and in return I’ve learned about different kinds of wine and found out which ones I like. Rogers Ford Farm Winery is also off a back road, secluded kind of in the country, in the woods and an old farmhouse tasting room. The setting was a welcome stress reliever over the past year as well.

My other best therapy during the pandemic was nature therapy. I have been walking in the woods at Alum Springs Park about once a month since this craziness began and it’s been my breath of fresh air to have some quiet moments amongst the trees and babbling springs and scampering squirrels and I even had a magical encounter with a deer one morning. I like going earlier in the mornings before more people show up. Sometimes I’ve been the only one there at the time and it’s very peaceful.

I think that’s all I have to say for tonight… Until next time.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

My Rockin Boyfriend Ronnie Dixon: Digging up some of his bands from the past

I decided to do a blog post of some of the bands my boyfriend used to be in. I used to go to some of these shows. There's quite a bit for Method of Friction that you can find online, but the other one, Dirty Sanchez, is from about 10 years back and pretty rare. So check out Ronnie Dixon rockin out on guitar.



http://youtu.be/9i_JdwOnruo


http://youtu.be/yPt9DqPsEvc


http://youtu.be/rDMRIjd71Fk


http://youtu.be/XWLBm3l0ONs


http://youtu.be/4_seG8NYQWg


http://youtu.be/zVv0zt2SW2E


http://youtu.be/IQ5XbSArdyY


http://youtu.be/9_bSnmwSvrs

Fuel and Tantric in Fredericksburg

Hard Times Cafe in Fredericksburg, VA, my home town, has been getting some bigger acts in this year. I got to catch Fuel there in May and Tantric in June. It's been awhile since I posted a blog due to being busy with my personal life and a new job, so I haven't had the chance for any big concerts lately. But luckily a few decent ones came to me so I was able to go. Both bands were rocking and it was a good time. Here are some pics and videos from those shows. Enjoy!



http://youtu.be/nync8-3V708



http://youtu.be/k4h72sUdvyE


My favorite Fuel song. 
http://youtu.be/9sUbyFH8ldA

http://youtu.be/kaq_2VMNuRA



http://youtu.be/VtBT67_mZSQ

I loved the bottom of his mic stand.

http://youtu.be/1j8IMazpZpI



http://youtu.be/o8gHeF-Ec_8


http://youtu.be/mUx4JKXA-TE


http://youtu.be/Yw2WMwpKMc4

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Farewell Filter/Thank You Dido

A lot has happened in my life the past few months, which is what delayed this blog posting. This will be my last blog entry regarding Filter. I will still keep my blog, because "mewzak" is MY blog. I just used it as one of many tools to help promote one of my favorite bands that I've been especially focused on the past few years. I will not get into personal details, except that the reason I will no longer be going to Filter shows or posting blogs about them, IS just that, personal.

The first week of June I went to 4 Filter shows and it was also the new album release week for "The Sun Comes Out Tonight." I love the album and wish the band success with it. Two of the shows were the closest the band has ever come to me, as part of the Summerland Tour. And I also won entry into an acoustic performance for 102.1 The X in Richmond. Musically, that was a highlight of all the Filter shows I've seen. It was very intimate and I'm glad I got to attend a rare acoustic performance.

Here are some videos and such from that week:











We also got to meet Everclear
I also have some more videos of Everclear and Live on my mewzak youtube channel.

Now, as I said, a lot has happened the past few months. Amid troubles, I got a Samsung Galaxy tablet as a gift for my birthday. And when I registered it online, I got some free credits to the Google Play store. So I got Dido's latest album, "Girl Who Got Away", which I didn't even know was out. I love her and as usual, the right music came to me at the perfect time. So here are some songs and lyrics from that album that fit my life the past few months. The music can say it all better than I can. So thank you Dido (which is kind of funny because one of her earlier well known songs was "Thank You" haha).

"End of Night"
Only now it's gone
I can see the year
See for what it was
And start another day
All the liberty you took
The love that you abused
The friends that you turned
Against me if you could
And youre twisting what I say
All that saying you were scared
It doesn't matter anymore
Cos Im not there
You were careless when the beat kicked in
And careless when it left
And careless all the way
I didn't see it till the end

I feel nothing
When you cry
I hear nothing
See no need to reply
I can smile now
And turn away
Come over here
So you can see me walk away
And celebrate
The end of night
The end of night

It only takes one lie
To bring this house down
Behind closed doors
No one tells the first time round
Pain is worse when you bring it on yourself
The sweetest bully building
A love that couldn't last
You were ugly when the beat kicked in
And ugly when it left
And ugly all the way, I didn't see it till the end

I feel nothing
When you cry
I hear nothing
See no need to reply
I can smile now
And turn away
Come over here
So you can see me walk away
And celebrate
The end of night
The end of night

After the fall comes love
I hate to hate and love to love

I feel nothing
When you cry
I hear nothing
See no need to reply
I can smile now
And turn away
Come over here
So you can see me walk away
And celebrate
The end of night
The end of night



"Love To Blame"
Helen of Troy was the kind of girl
Who really had it all
Not a care in the world but her head was turned
And forever changed
She said one love is lost but another is found
So just take the keys and let's just go, birds fly south


Nothing ventured
Nothing gained
It's all about love
So I'm not to blame
I'm not to blame



She said I've dotted my i's and I've crossed my t's
Had time for friends when they needed me
I try to make sense of senseless things
Try to live how I believe
And of course I leave things behind that I'll regret
But there's time enough for new things yet, for new things yet



When the dust covers the sun
And all you hope for is undone
Will you turn and say
Nothing ventured
Nothing gained
It was all for love so love is to blame
Love is to blame



When the dust covers the sun
And all you hope for is undone
Will you turn and say
Nothing ventured
Nothing gained
It was all for love so love is to blame

Love is to blame


"Go Dreaming"

Another summer coming to an end
And I'm still walking on without a care
And even if the birds have flown, the sun has gone
I'll still be here

Oh I want to walk with kings
Oh and take a chance on things
And though I may give way to those who could cause me pain
And step aside to threats and bullies
I still believe, I still believe

I'd rather go dreaming, believing in something, better than in me
I'd rather die loving, lost in the feeling of letting go
I'd rather die caring, working for something, seeing it as good
I can let it go, I can let it go

They're all flying flags and making noise
Bringing on their speeches drinks and boys
But when they're gone I'll be standing here
And picking up the mess they left
I still believe, I still believe

I'd rather go dreaming, believing in something, better than in me
I'd rather die loving, lost in the feeling of letting go
I'd rather die caring, working for something, seeing it as good
I can let it go, I can let it go


"Loveless Hearts"
I can find the good news in anything
But without you, that's all gone
No one could have told me how much I'd miss you
And how soon the world moves on


How can they not hear me
When I say
Oh, we're not safe anymore



Did loveless hearts build the world
Only to tear it apart
How did those gods tempt you to leave
Just when we needed you most



The sun will rise today as it did yesterday
And I'll keep on going too
But every hour that I get through it breaks my heart
That I am losing more of you



Did loveless hearts build the world
Only to tear it apart
How did those gods tempt you to leave
Just when we needed you most


Saturday, June 22, 2013

My Friend April Parsons


This week I was shocked and saddened by the death of a friend, April Parsons. Sure, she was kinda kooky, but she was also honest, generous and had a huge heart. I'm going to go into some things here that I would not share normally, but I feel sharing them now would honor her life.

April and I met through being fans of Filter. We talked online for quite some time and we confided in each other quite a bit. I only actually met her twice in person, the two times we went on ShipRocked.

The first time she was one of my roommates on the ship. Close to the time of the cruise, some extra things were announced for special experiences with the artists. I had spent my last dime on the trip expenses and could not afford any of them. April, never having met me in person before, paid $300 for me to go to the dinner with the singers. One of the best memories I will ever have of ShipRocked and Filter, I owe to April. I will never forget that favor.

I did pay her back months later when I could, but I just put the check in the mail without telling her, because I knew she would say not to do it. She was surprised when she received it and told me I shouldn't have done it. But she actually needed some money at that time, so I hope my karma ended well on that deed.

Also while onboard, she used her photographer access to get me in early for the Filter set in the auditorium, so I was able to be up front and center for their performance. That was the night Richard handed me his guitar pick to make the scratching noises on his guitar in the breakdown part of "Dose." Yet again, I have her to thank for that moment and memory.

The second time we were on ShipRocked, there was a night I hung out with her by the bar out on the deck and we had a heart to heart. She needed a friend and I'm glad I spent that time with her.

We hadn't kept in contact that much after that, but just a few weeks before her death, I did give her some complimentary comments on some of her photos of Filter from their recent show in Florida. While it was a small gesture, I am glad my last few words to her were kind and I hope they meant something to her.

I only wish I could have said or done something to prevent her from ending her life early... but being someone who struggles with depression myself, I know that sometimes you can't stop someone from resorting to it. I wish she would have still had hope for life. She was beautiful and talented and I hope her spirit now knows that and is at peace.

My condolences to her family and friends, especially her son. I hope he learns how special his mom was as he grows up.